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My life is so cray cray out of all the things that could happen to me why this I did everything I was supposed to do to prevent this from happening I got my tubes tied I didn't want 5 kids or at least I didn't think I did until I heard you are pregnant everything changed in 2 days the baby wasn't going to make it which I knew was very possible but to hear it was devastating and to go straight to surgery because your life is at risk was terrifying but everything went good however I lost both tubes and my right ovary too because ause that is where baby actually was when they went in wedding collections collections with colors :( I'm so sad honestly don't even know how to process all of this I know I was going to lose my tubes and even my baby but my ovary too who would have thought